A Prayer for the Strayed

Inspiration can come from all sorts of places. Years ago I found a beautiful prayer for unbelievers inside a novel by Jan Karon.  The words expressed my sentiments perfectly, and I copied it out for my own use.  I have adapted and said it for my own fallen-away family members often.  I would like to share it with you,  as I complete my icon for those who have turned away from faith.  It has been part of my prayer process.


Bless Your child (—) with the reality of Your presence.  By the power of Your Holy Spirit, so move in (his/her) heart and life that (he/she) cannot ignore or turn away from Your love for (him/her).

Go, Lord, into that darkness where no belief dwells, where no candle burns, where no solace can be found, and kindle Your love in (him/her) in a deep and powerful way.

Pour out Your love upon (her/him), Lord, with such tenderness that (he/she) cannot turn away.  Pour out Your love, Lord, with such mercy that (he/she) cannot deny Your grace.  Fill (his/her) heart with certainty–the confidence and certainty that You made (him/her) for Yourself, that You might take delight in (her/his) service.

Thank you, Lord, for the good (she/he) has already done for Your kingdom, no matter the reasons (he/she) may have had.  Thank you, Father, for this time in Your presence–for holding all of us in the circle of Your love and grace.  With all of my heart, I ask you to turn (—) back to You.  Call (her/him) to repent and become Yours for all eternity.  In Jesus’ name.  Amen.

Used with permission.  Adapted from In This Mountain by Jan Karon, published by Putnam, an imprint of Penguin Publishing Group, a division of Penguin Random House LLC. Copyright © 2002 by Jan Karon.

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Praying with St. Therese for the lost sheep

St.Therese bsThe 5th figure on my icon of prayers for the lost sheep of Jesus is St.  Therese.

St. Therese of Lisieux, called the Little Flower, and noted for her “little way”,  wanted to be a missionary and bring souls to Jesus.  Her health prevented that rigorous life, but she supported other missionaries with letters and prayers.  Her dream was to spend her time in heaven helping those on earth find the light of Christ, saying “I will return.  My heaven will be spent on earth.”

Even as a child, she prayed for those who had separated themselves from God.  There is a story of her praying for a condemned and widely hated murderer, who suddenly grabbed and kissed a crucifix in the moment before he was executed, after refusing all prayer and comfort up to that point.  St. Therese believed that her prayers had softened his heart enough to repent and turn back to God.

St. Therese, you once said “There is only one thing to do here below: to love Jesus, to win souls for Him so that He may be loved.”  Pray with us now, that the hearts of our loved ones might be softened and return to Christ.

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A joyous blessing

First Day 21My life has been greatly blessed this past week.  A baby grandson was born just a few days ago.  He is my one, and possibly only, grandchild.  I love him to pieces!  His name is Elliott.  I was curious about the origin of that name.  I looked it up, and most of the sources credit it as an old English/Welsh/Scotch version of the Hebrew name Elijah.

Elijah means “One with God” or “The Lord is my God“.

Interestingly enough,  I once painted an icon for37-elijah-004 Elliott’s dad–ages ago. I chose the image myself, and designed the composition to incorporate a biblical story that had meaning to him.

The image I chose way back then, out of all the possibilities in Christian and biblical history, was the Prophet Elijah.

Most of the daily readings at Mass these past 2 weeks have been about Elijah, too!

Holy Prophet Elijah, pray for little Elliott. Pray for all of his family, that they might be blessed with good health, kept safe, and live lives showered with the grace and goodness of God.

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Locked in an upper room. Winds howling, angry mobs clamoring below. Fearful agony, and that room becomes a tomb. The winds shift and then enters a Holy Spirit, the Spirit of promise. Their fear is …

Source: Pentecost.

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Disillusionment Straight From the Heart

I mentioned in my last post that I might be a “slow learner”.  Perhaps in more than one category.  Now I look at my patriotic ideals, and my naivete is exposed.

I watch at least a little of the election news nearly every night–reluctantly, but of course one needs to be informed.  I had faith that the collective wisdom of our educated population would prevail.  And then I look at the 2 likely nominees, the front runners.  Really people? is this the best we can do?  What is wrong with you all?  Are you thinking, remembering, listening to these two?

I am astonished and appalled.  If these are to be the choices, perhaps it time to consider an ex-pat community in Costa Rica.

And even further, I am seeing what a farce it is to have believed that my vote counted. By the people, for the people?  I don’t think so.

I say this because:  in one party, at one point early on in the primary elections, one candidate had beaten the other  in half the states, and barely–BARELY–lost in the rest of them.  They were running neck and neck in the vote of the people.  And yet, at that time, the delegate count for each candidate was in the neighborhood of 300 delegates to 5.  This in no way reflected the will of the people who belonged to this party.

The other party is not any better.  One candidate defeated a dozen others, state by state, emerging on top.  But this one is not supported by the party leadership, so there was talk about having to “broker” the convention and put someone else on the ballot instead. Then there was a stated refusal by many party leaders to support him when his victory became obvious.  Again, the will of the people who belong to this party is being worked against.

My country is becoming something I never hope for, worked towards.  It is not the country that my father fought for all those years ago.  It is not the one I learned about in school history and civics classes.  How can this be allowed by us, by the people?  The United States was a country so richly blessed, and with such promise for the future.  And now, all I can do it throw up my hands in prayer and in hope, for the sake of the few good persons in America.

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A “well, duh” moment

Now many of you will probably say “well, duh” when you read this, but even though I have been praying for people all of my life, I am evidently a slow learner.

Twice in the last year, I have volunteered to be a prayer partner for someone who is going through a program of faith formation.  I have never met these people, don’t know what they look like, who they are, or what their needs or circumstances are.  I just have a name.

I found it difficult to do, to pray for somebody that was faceless and unknown to me.  My prayers felt short, trite, dry as I cast about for something to say about them to the Lord, some concrete need that I could ask Him for.

Then I had the moment of insight that I needed:  just let go.  God knows what they need.   I don’t need to know.

I realized that I had been trying to control things, to tell God what to do.  What’s more:  I do that as well in my intercessory prayer for myself, for my family, for my friends and all loved ones.  I do it when I pray for “the world” and the Christian refugees in the Middle East–assuming that I know what is best and practically preparing a list for God so that He would know what to do.

None of that is necessary.  It is enough to hold each of these dear people for a moment in my heart and mind, lifting them lovingly up to the Lord and asking Him to bless them and fill them with grace.


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Skin Tones in Acrylic: A Process

I have been experimenting with painting icons using acrylic paints, after years of using egg tempera exclusively.  I kind of like acrylics, with their ease of use and quick drying.  Over time, I have studied with several different teachers, each with their own methods, and it has been interesting trying to find my own preferences and methods in my iconography.

acrylic sankir drawing2 inked acrylic sankir Jesus1

acrylic sankir Jesus2

I recently found myself fairly well pleased with a way to paint skin tones (sankir) with my very limited acrylic palette.

01 acrylic sankir GearI use the paint directly from the tube, thinning it with equal parts water and Golden Fluid Matte Medium.  Using only water gives you lovely transparency, but often there is a problem with lifting:  the acrylic medium binds the paint to the surface, making it permanent.  I mix the medium, water, and paint, using an old jar lid as a container, until it has the general consistency of heavy cream.  Letting it sit for a couple of hours allows any bubbles to disperse.  My palette is very limited: the colors in the photo are 95% of what I used to paint these faces.  One can also use the same powdered pigments as in egg tempera:  just use the acrylic medium instead of egg yolk for the binding agent to make the liquid paint.

I’ll go through my modest, cautious method (and there are many ways to make this work, this is just what I have stumbled upon) step by step, with this painting of St.Monica:

acrylic sankir St.Monica0 w thereseFirst, of course, I transfer the drawing to the board, line it with a mixture of red, ultramarine blue, and green to make a dark, dense color.  I don’t often use black for anything.  I then cover the entire board with a layer of yellow ochre to open the icon and provide a unifying harmonious color below the other layers of paint.


acrylic sankir St.Monica1The first layer of the skin tone/sankir is Chromium Oxide Green with a bit of Yellow Ochre.  It is pretty green and alarming–but don’t worry, it will work.  Paint it on all skin and hair areas.  If necessary, redraw most of the lines:  upper eyelid, pupil, eyebrows, nose, mouth, chin.

Next I paint on, in the areas that will be highlighted with Cadmium Red Light.  I am careful to blend in the edges at this early step as best as I can, using water to thin out and avoid sharp boundary lines.

acrylic sankir St.Monica2Mix some Yellow Ochre, about half and half, with the red.  Thin with water and acrylic medium to make it transparent.  (Anytime you thin acrylics with water, remember to add in some medium.  Otherwise the pigments might not bind properly and will lift off when you paint the next layer.)  Apply this color as a base coat for the bright highlights.  After this somewhat orangey layer, I use pure Yellow Ochre in transparent layers, until the features become distinct, moving gradually back away from the edges.

The brighter highlights are made by adding Titanium White to the Yellow Ochre.  Float on transparent layers for a small icon, brush them on a larger one, using water and medium to dilute, soften and fade the edges so that there are no sharp boundaries.

acrylic sankir St.Monica3As you paint, it can happen that the whitish paint layers come up too brightly, or the tones are too chalky.  Fix this by putting a thin layer of transparent Red or Yellow Ochre –or both–over the entire skin and hair area, including the green shadow areas.  These faint layers of red, then ochre, will soften the harsh green and red areas that are showing.  They become more brown or olive in shade, depending on whether you push back the chalky areas with reds or ochres.


acrylic sankir St.Monica4The transparent layers of reds or ochres will blend the entire skin tones beautifully, eliminating “islands” overly bright color.  Use as many layers as you feel is necessary, going back and forth between painting on highlights and pushing them back.  With each layer, the face emerges a bit more.

One nice thing about using this method is that it is never hopeless.  You can always fix and correct anything.  Paint it on, push it back.  Just keep on tinkering with it, using the paint more like transparent water colors.  Reline if necessary. Use a transparent layer of burnt sienna and green if you need to darken shadows.

acrylic sankir St.Monica5         acrylic sankir St.Monica8 w Therese

Finally, once the skin tones are softly blended and look correct to your eye, use a 60-40 mixture of Titanium White to Yellow Ochre to do the brightest highlights.  Pure white is too harsh.  Paint in the dark lines (eyebrows, eyes, etc).  And again, if they are too stark, push them back with a layer of Yellow Ochre over all again.  Repaint if necessary.  Put in pure red (transparent) lines along the nose, mouth, chin, around forehead, red spots in the corner of the eye and by the ear, and anywhere else that a warm emphatic line is useful.


I am sure that there are as many ways to do this as their are iconographers, but this method has worked for me.  I hope this has been helpful to you. And as you might guess, some of the color differences in the illustrations are due to different lighting when I took the photo.  All of them are different stages of one painted face, from start to finish.


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Dog Portrait

Walter bJust for a change of pace, I recently painted a portrait of a friend’s beloved dog.  It will be a gift. I used to be an illustrator, and loved to draw and paint animals, so this was a return to this activity. With the exception of my deplorable calligraphy, it was fun and easy.

In fact, it felt good to have something go so easily! Icons can be such a struggle at times, technically and spirituality.  It was relaxing and fun to make this portrait of Walter the rescue dog.

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What I learned from our Muslim students

For many years, my husband and I have hosted students from around the world. These students were studying English at our local university, before going on to earn degrees in their areas of career interest.  For the most part, they came with near-zero English skills, and chose to stay with a host family for their first term to enhance their acquisition of language skills and to ease into American culture with some family-based insights and assistance.  The students came from all over the world, and we learned as much from them as they learned from us.

Some of our students were from the Middle East, including United Arab Emirates and Saudi Arabia. All of them were male.  Their time with us was very enlightening for us all.  For me, it served to balance the atmosphere of distrust that has entered our society since 9/11, and the more recent acts of terrorism.

The great love and caring that each young man had for their family, and for the institution of family in general, was amazing.  Both fathers and mothers were spoken of with utmost respect.  Family was thought of often, contacted frequently. (Skype is a wonderful thing!) Packages arrived from “home” regularly for our students, with gifts of familiar food and special things that they liked.  Each little sister and brother was doted on, talked about often, as were older siblings, parents, and the extended families.  Gifts were carefully chosen for each.

I had seen videos of Muslim mothers rejoicing when their suicide bomber sons blew themselves up.  I know now what a total aberration that is, what a corruption that is of a people whose lives are very closely bonded and loving, for whom family is extremely important.

Friendships, too, were close, tolerant, and affectionate.  It is clear that relationships are valued more than profit in that culture.  The importance of family has influenced the formation of language as well.  In English, where properties are handed down through generations according to strict conventions, we have many specific names for specific relationships:  brother, sister, half-sister, step-sister, sister-in-law, cousin, niece, nephew, and so on.  In Arabic, if I understood them correctly, there is no word for cousin, nephew, niece, etc.  There is only brother and sister, mother and father.  A cousin might be explained, if the issue of relationship was pressed, as the brother who is son of his father’s brother.  But anyone who was related to the family was called brother, was called sister–all are simply family without qualification.  The Arabic students were mystified at the complexity of our family/relationship words.

The respect for family that the young men brought with them was extended to us, their American host family, and they were thoughtful and courteous.  As their English improved, we had many open and honest conversations, which was a wonderful gift.

All of the Muslim students were very proud of their countries and culture, and wanted to study hard and learn so as to improve not only their own lives but also for the greater good of their country.  They wanted to contribute to the world, to their world.

They were very well-versed in their religious beliefs, and were well able to explain and share.  In fact, they could be downright evangelical in their faith at times,  and always unafraid to voice their point of view.  They were totally willing to be countercultural in our society, and to resist those things that they regarded as wrong:  drinking, cursing, immodest dress, eating the “wrong” foods, etc. (Naturally, this isn’t across the board, many individuals gave into a double-standard and behaved differently than they would have at home in Saudi Arabia, but all of our particular students were very faithful to their upbringing and family expectations.)

Their witness to Islam was most impressive.  They faithfully attended prayer services at the local mosque every week.  Prayer, and God, was always a priority.  No matter what they were doing, at the proper time for prayers they stopped, and retreated to their room to pray.  They performed their ritual preparations, and praised and worshipped.  The prayer times occurred 5 times a day, as I recall, and took about 15 to 20 minutes to complete.  They even set their alarms to rise before dawn, pray, and return to sleep. Praying was the last thing they did at night.  It reminded me of the old Christian practice of the Liturgy of the Hours, which is probably only done regularly in monasteries any more.  Yet these young men, with no one watching and no one holding them accountable, willingly and cheerfully held fast to this tradition.  We should be so faithful to our own practices!

I am glad I had the opportunity to get to know these Muslim students.  When I see news reports and hear of acts of prejudice, I am able to balance it out with my own experiences.  I wish that everyone had the opportunity to either travel or to host people from overseas.  It is a wonderful way to open up our own perceptions to other people and other ways of living.

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The Icon of the Trinity

This icon, written by Andrei Rublev in the xxx century, is considered to be the most theologically perfect icon ever made.  It is the highest achievement of Russian art–and a masterpiece by any standards. It is based on the Old Testament story of Abraham unwittingly entertaining angels with perfect hospitality.  Christians believe that this event is the first revelation of God in Three Divine Persons.

Rublev’s Trinity most fully expresses the dogma of the Trinity in artwork.

The three angels are used in the icon as a symbol of the Holy Trinity. Indeed, in iconography it is heresy to depict God the Father, whose face no one has ever seen.  This symbolic rendition of the Trinity, as told in the Bible, is the only permissible way to show the figure of God the Father.

Andrei Rublev Trinity

The figure on the left represents God the Father.  Both of the others bow their heads towards Him.  The One in the center represents Jesus Christ, the one on the right is the Holy Spirit.  They are all in relationship with each other, looking at each other, each  inclining their heads in attentiveness and love, sitting together around a small table as if at an intimate meal.  Compositionally, the figures form a circle, a shape that is without beginning or end, complete in itself without any one part coming before the other.  The three persons all look basically alike–because they are One.

Note also that the figure of Christ is blessing a cup/chalice at this heavenly banquet, and also, that within the “negative space” of the trio, His entire figure is enclosed in a chalicelike shape formed by the Father and Holy Spirit.  Jesus wears the gold “band of authority” over His shoulder, representing His authority to reveal the Father to all of us.

There is a little rectangle in the table near the bottom center:  it represents the entrance to heaven, to the heavenly banquet, for all of us.  It is through the Eucharistic meal, and the cup of suffering and love, that we enter the kingdom of God. Imagine peeking through that entranceway, into the color, light, and glory of what is depicted in the icon!

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